December 10, 2011

whats happening around the house..

Every time i step foot out of the house to go start my Christmas shopping ( very late this year )
i end up at the nursery looking at plants ( buying plants ) oops , oh well does make the gardens look good
and once they all grow I'm sure it will look fantastic out there :-) 
i took a couple of pictures of the veggie garden not that its flourishing yet but it will after all its only all been planted a couple of weeks ago .

also today i done a little baking thought it was time i pull my self out of this rut and spend some time baking a few treats , and i also spent a hour on my own today for the first time since mums been gone and do ya know what i did , i folded laundry and cried like a baby i mean really cried i am just so heartbroken still and it was good i guess to be able to just sit and howl like a baby with out the kids and partner in the house ( molly is having her own issues with toileting since mums gone and she is on the ball about me being sad or crying so I'm trying to be a bit braver in front of her , i know we all miss mum-nan a lot and molly often says i miss nan i think of her all the time and that coming from my little girl whom has autism is pretty special hearing her express her feelings - mum told me to take her out to the night sky and show her the biggest brightest star and tell her that's nan and we have done that :-) 

8 comments:

  1. Hello Heidi..Thank you for stopping by my Blog...I'm glad that you found comfort in my words. One of the nice parts of Blogging is sharing those words that inspire others..

    Graves Disease is a wicked disease that affects everyone differently and I to had never heard of it until I was diagnosed with it..I pray your mothers is not as bad as mine..

    Plants for the garden sound like the perfect Christmas gift for self and those who will enjoy your garden when it is in full bloom!! Giggle!!
    Maybe you can give every one an Herb Plant for Christmas.

    Have a Great Weekend!!

    Christmas Blessings
    Tonya

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  2. There aren't any words that anybody can say that will make it better..... there just aren't. You will cry a lot.... and feel like crying a lot more than you actually allow yourself to do. You should cry a lot as far as I am concerned...it helps. Well, it helped me... and I stand by it. If we don't grieve at the time...we grieve later... and sometimes... that's not such a good thing.
    I lost my Mum years ago...but, it took a long time to get over it. Well, you never actually get over it... it just becomes somewhat different with the passing of a lot of time. I cried all the time for most of three months after she died and it was a few years before I could even talk about her without tears in my eyes. And... we too, felt guilty and sometimes I still do feel sadness about it. .. because at the end we could not do as much for her as we wanted to do.

    sending big hugs...

    Veronica

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  3. You have a good cry whenever you need to Heidi. It will take some time. Try to enjoy your Christmas with your family, I'm sure your mum will have wanted that. Also when you start to feel sad, make yourself think of all the wonderful things you have in your life right now. If you do that each time, eventually it won't hurt so much as you will begin to associate the feeling with the good times. Do it often enough and you'll find it does work. I guarantee it! Hang in there my friend. Hugs Maa

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  4. Bumble vee i to cry when i talk about mum,it was just today that i ran in to my childhood friends brother and my tears came and my voice cracked as i was trying to talk he understood im sure it was only a couple of years since they lost there mum,and Maa i will try to keep doing that, thank you all for your kind words , on a brighter note we went to a couple of markets today the one at evendale was lovley im going to try and get to it at least once a month its about 120 km away but worth going they have so much there fresh produce , home made goats soap , flowers ,plants,fresh baked goodies, you name it its there and lots and lots of old junk :-))

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  5. Bumble vee i to cry when i talk about mum,it was just today that i ran in to my childhood friends brother and my tears came and my voice cracked as i was trying to talk he understood im sure it was only a couple of years since they lost there mum,and Maa i will try to keep doing that, thank you all for your kind words , on a brighter note we went to a couple of markets today the one at evendale was lovley im going to try and get to it at least once a month its about 120 km away but worth going they have so much there fresh produce , home made goats soap , flowers ,plants,fresh baked goodies, you name it its there and lots and lots of old junk :-))

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  6. Bumble vee i to cry when i talk about mum,it was just today that i ran in to my childhood friends brother and my tears came and my voice cracked as i was trying to talk he understood im sure it was only a couple of years since they lost there mum,and Maa i will try to keep doing that, thank you all for your kind words , on a brighter note we went to a couple of markets today the one at evendale was lovley im going to try and get to it at least once a month its about 120 km away but worth going they have so much there fresh produce , home made goats soap , flowers ,plants,fresh baked goodies, you name it its there and lots and lots of old junk :-))

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  7. I'm so sorry about your mum. I know you loved her dearly and there are no words that I can say that will make you feel better. I know the cry you had did you well. Just know that I will be praying for you. Hugs to you my friend.

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