On Friday the 7th Oct my mum turned 67 so we had 2 days of celebrating with family ,friends and food it was a strange time of feelings of sadness that this would be her last birthday here with us yet it was fantastic that everyone came together for her special day , i herd her say it was the best birthday she has ever had :-)
iv been taking lots of photos , talking lots with mum , crying lots with mum , and laughing lots with mum to.
i am trying to come to terms with what is happening , its Sunday night right now mum has been home with me for 3 weeks and she has spent the last 2 nights with my younger sister and will return here in the morning and i have missed her like crazy iv spend the weekend going out of my mind , crying like never before i guess iv had to much time on my hands to think , and i keep thinking if i miss her this much for a weekend what the heck am i going to do when she leaves us ....i know she wont truly leave she will all ways be in our hearts and memories ... but really that just doesn't cut it for me maby I'm selfish but i just wont my mum to be here for ever . what am i going to do when i need her and trust me I'm gonna need her this is all tearing me up in side , oh iv lost loved ones before my brother , dad etc but nothing compares to this this is just heart wrenching !!!
Rexy one of mums cats she has 2 one is a Cornish Rex the other a Devon Rex!!